"Everyday is not a good one, there will be tough ones and there might even be days where we feel like we can't make it but take this as an opportunity to share what God has done"
For a week and two days I was trying to conquer life with a lot on my shoulders, I couldn't keep my mind off some things and I just honestly needed God to really come in and take over. I was crying out for Him every day and night, I recently wrote a blog post titled "A Cry Out For Help" that I dedicated as a praise to God during this hard time. I wanted to help the ones that needed help but didn't know what to say. I wanted people to see that we will have bad days and not every day will be a good one and that we might even have a week where we don't feel like we can make it, but we can't let it overtake us.
During this week, I stopped believing. I wasn't believing in myself, my dreams, nor the things God promised me. I got into this impatient phase and started trying to do things on my own and make things work on my own time. So God eventually told me off and I cut that out but I somehow still felt alone.
This summer my plan is to work two jobs, go deeper in Christ and find more and more about myself. I had just hit a growth mark and was trying to realize some things when the enemy came in and took this as a leap of faith to ruin what God had for me. Unfortunately, I fell into the trap. At the time I didn't realize it was the enemy trapping me, I thought my life was really going downhill and I was stressed from these jobs I was working. The days went by and I got weaker and weaker; I just knew I couldn't do it anymore. It was time to call a quit on everything I was doing from working my jobs, to writing my book, praying, and reading.. It was postpartum depression in full effect without the childbirth.
BUT GOD........
It was a certain conversation I was having with my mom that ignited the perfect flame because next thing you know my body was on fire and I was just spilling out everything. During this conversation I felt a tiny weight lift off my shoulder. I knew God was opening up my eyes to see what was really going on. He wanted my mom to show me how to understand life is all about how you perceive things. Yes, you may feel one thing about something but what if that isn't how it actually went. You have to look at things in a positive way before you pull out the negative of life. I had to realize that yes life is tough but if we focus on the things that matter we won't have such a hard time dealing with the things that don't matter.
As I am sitting here now writing to you guys, I encourage you all to recognize the things that the enemy will throw at you especially if you are going Gods way. This lesson taught me to write down the plans God has for me and try to see where the enemy will try to come steal, kill and destroy, and be prepared. God wants us to connect with people because He uses that as a way to communicate whether it's you sharing something or someone sharing something with you. Don't isolate yourself from the people God has placed in your life for you because you never know how you might be affecting your life or someone else's. I also want you all to know that when you feel like no one has your back , you are misunderstood, or just simply feel like you have no one those are thoughts from the enemy and that is how he wants you to feel so that he can come and steal your joy. Joy is one of the greatest gifts we can have, don't allow the devil to come in and steal it. We have power over the enemy because God is bigger. Always remember your WHY for everything that you do. Believe that you can achieve and know that with God anything is possible, keep working hard and don't give up, the best is yet to come. It is just a matter of seconds before God comes in and turns EVERYTHING around and believe me He can do it and will when we least expect Him to.
NEVER STOP BELIEVING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!